So it is the middle of February and I just realized that I have written nothing for this page… like NOTHING at all!!!!
There is something weird going on with me. I say that because normally I love reading, but since the beginning of this month, I feel no attraction whatsoever towards any book, even though there are few unread ones sitting in my kindle just waiting to be read! I also am not feeling like writing or doing anything which requires even an ounce of brain power.
Being a couch potato and doing nothing worthwhile seems like a brilliant idea to me.
Not that I am sad or depressed, or maybe I am… I don’t know!! I just want to be a part of the inertia and see what happens eventually.
As I sit on my bed with propped up pillows behind me and a side pillow under my leg, I am still as an inanimate object. I am an extension of the bed itself. I can see the fan rotating above my head with a slow humming noise which is rather catchy if you hear it over and over and over. I can smell the food being cooked somewhere in this building. They are cooking dry fish and the smell would have normally nauseated me to death, but today I don’t really care. Someone is singing an Arijit Singh number in a bad voice. I hear that too. The clock in my room is ticking like a time bomb as if to let me know that precious time is passing by. Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock… All I feel is Meh!!!
Everything seems to be happening in slow-mo around me and I feel I am not a part of it but a mere bystander who is here to observe and report! But to whom? And Why? I don’t know! Everything seems so fruitless. What is the point of all this!?!
However, all that thought goes out of the window when my 2 furry babies come bounding in the room spreading too much joy and excitement. It is hard to be in a state of Languor when they are jumping around with such exuberance.
My trance is broken and I am brought back to reality by my 2 scruff balls and life continues as it should.
By the way… amidst all this I still haven’t figured out what to write!!!!
PS: I am neither drunk nor high while writing this!
These days I feel the same.. but sadly I dont have any furballs to bring me back to reality. The mundane life passes in front of me and i stand there looking at it pass. And even I feel like.. Meh!! I guess once in a while everyone goes through that.
Yeah… only hoping it goes away at the earliest….
I am not sure, but every ones in a while such inertia might be enjoyable if one can afford it:) I would love some of this, but the demands on my time at this point in my life does not allow inertia…my point being it’s ok to be inert, someone else is wishing for some inertia at the very moment you are questioning it’s presence in your life:)
🙂 Moumita I do hope you get some much deserved inertia in your life for a lil bit just to recuperate….